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le 01 février 2010 (17:46)
current location: home
current song: fan

Not sure if anyone reads this anymore, but anyway, I need help, I need to remember a specific day...does anyone have any suggestions on how to do this? I know there's hypnosis and stuff like that, but I'm looking for a way to remember on my own.

Thanks for any responses!

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Writer's Block: A rose by any other name ...

le 21 janvier 2010 (13:15)
current location: home

How did you choose your LiveJournal username? Is there an interesting story behind it?

I guess it's kind of my nick name. My name is Nicole, and some people call me Nikki.

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le 29 novembre 2009 (14:10)


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Advice people have given me

le 22 août 2009 (17:34)

current location: Home
current mood: frustrated

Okay, so I knew this would happen...when you have a baby, everyone wants to tell you how to raise them properly, and especially when they've had kids of their own, they think that makes them an expert. When you know people from different cultures, this also makes it interesting. Here are some of the things I've heard :
Your baby is cold, why isn't he dressed? Make sure he ALWAYS wears socks.
You should be giving him other milk.
You should supplement his diet with water.
He's crying, he must have gas.
Cloth diapers are not good for him.
Boil carrots, and give him the water.
Don't pick him up too much, you'll spoil him.
He shouldn't sleep in bed with you, because then you'll never get him to sleep on his own.
You don't have a crib? *Funny look*
Make sure you're eating lots of soup.
You have to put cream on his bum.

The most popular one is probably asking if he's cold. My goodness people need to BUTT OUT. And honestly, I don't mind the advice, it's when people tell me like it's a fact. I appreciate getting people's advice, especially from people who actually have kids or experience, but in the end, it's my baby, and I'll do what I want, so if I don't follow your advice, that's my business. Like I said, I don't mind tips and pointers, but people need to realize that just because they've had kids or know kids doesn't make their word scripture, every kid is different, and aside from a few things, there is no "right" or "wrong" way to do it. As long as you're not hurting them or something, don't worry about it, he's my baby, and I think I know him better than you!

Just a rant, and I'm sure I'll have more later on, but that's all I can think of now.

Oh and Ramadhan karim to everyone!

PS this doesn't mean I don't want advice, if you have some to offer, please go ahead, just don't be pushy about it and I'll appreciate it!

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le 22 juillet 2009 (14:36)

current location: Home
current mood: content
current song: none

Alhamdulillah, on July 12th, 2009, at 20h47, Sareim Samir Ali was born. Labour was good, lasted less than six hours, and masha'Allah my baby is so good! I am so happy to have a very cute baby. Anyway, I have so much stuff to do today, so I will go do that!

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le 08 juillet 2009 (22:50)

current location: Home
current mood: mellow
current song: none

Just up waiting for isha before I sleep. Not much to do, well actually I have lots of cleaning to do, but I would get too worked up and then never sleep, so I'm just trying to clean out my inbox, and thought that I haven't been on here for a while, so I'd post something. I really don't have much to say...

I was due on Monday, and still don't feel much different than I do two or three weeks ago. I'm excited to meet the little person, but at the same time I'm very patient. Right now he's all mine, I don't have to share, but once he's born, I'll have to share with my husband, and other people will want to come and hold him and stuff too. I still don't have a name. I think it will be easier once he's born, because then I'll know if he's a boy or a girl, so I'll be able to focus more. I think now, I don't want to get too attached to any name, because then if it's the opposite sex, I wouldn't get to use it. At least, I think that's what's going on in my subconscious mind.

I was feeling really down the other day though, cause I just really didn't want to have this baby. I really enjoy being pregnant, and I just hope that being a mother is just as great. I think I was mostly panicking that he might come early, but now that I'm already past my due date, I'm okay with whenever he's ready. For some reason I'm scared I won't know when I'm in labour, lol...anyone who's had a baby will probably tell me I'm insane, and that I will know.

On a sadder note, my dog had to be put down last night. I was really sad, I haven't seen him in almost five months, and I really wanted to pet him one last time, but I guess he was just in too much pain, and it was costing too much to keep him at the vet every night just barely living. I really feel for my dad, and it's going to be so weird going over there without him wagging his tail at my feet when I walk in. But really, it's just too crazy, and I hate that I didn't get to see him again. We had him for almost 13 years, I remember referring to him as my brother for this speech I did in grade four. I said goodbye to him over the phone, I'll admit, I felt kind of ridiculous talking to a dog like that on the phone, but it made me feel a bit better. I told my mom that it sucks he won't get to meet his new niece or nephew...we laughed at that. Uncle Dusty, kinda has a nice ring to it, lol. It was weird, when my mom called to tell me, it took a few minutes to kick in, like I was like, "oh...that sucks" and then just sat on the phone not knowing what to say, then I just started bawling...I was trying to stay calm though, cause I didn't want to go into labour. It's so weird having two huge events like this happen so close together, one so happy, and one so sad. Hopefully my baby will help to fill the void that was Dusty "The Wonder Dog" (as dad used to call him).

Well, back to baby talk, because there's nothing we can do for him now, he's in a better place as they say. I think I have everything ready for our new arrival, but I'm constantly wondering if there's some small, yet important thing that I've forgotten. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, that I'm not looking forward to, because apparently they like to do something called a stretch and sweep to get labour going, and I really don't want her to do it, if she usually does, I think she will give me a hard time and try to convince me to do it, and if she usually doesn't she will just look at me like an idiot, and tell me that she doesn't even do that. Anyway, if she's that bad, I just won't let her do an exam, so really nothing to stress about. I just hope I can sleep more tonight than last night, I woke up when Samir went to work at 5h30, and couldn't fall back asleep. I went for a nap in the afternoon, but the guy who came to replace our closet doors woke me up after an hour. Oh well, means I'll be able to fall asleep faster (I hope).

I have so much cleaning to do tomorrow...dishes, clothes, still going through boxes, I want to plant my herb garden soon, and of course cooking to prepare for post partum. I also really need to go through our freezer and fridge, because they are FULL and I need to freeze some food for after the baby. I also need to call Autopac, and PC Financial. What I really need to do is make a list, lol.

Well, I think it's almost time for prayer, I'll have just enough time to get ready for bed, so I can sleep right away after.

Goodnight :)

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le 27 juin 2009 (03:24)
current location: Home
current song: The air conditioner

So a week and three days until I'm due...I could really be pregnant for another month or so, I think I'm really going to miss it. I love the movements, having a butt sticking out there, a foot poking me there. So cool. I am so blessed to be able to experience this.

So we got all our new furniture (yay) and Suzanne came over yesterday, actually...Thursday and helped me clean up the place. Man do we ever have a lot of stuff. Mom was supposed to come over tomorrow, well technically today, but she has recently informed me that she might be coming Sunday instead. Not sure I like that. Of course I love my mom and she's welcome any time, but like, I was trying to make plans for Sunday, and I don't even know if she was going to tell me. I talked to her for a few minutes by chance on MSN, and I asked her if she could bring my dresser tomorrow when she comes, she replies with, "well, I'm not sure if it will fit in the car, and I might be coming Sunday instead" I'm just like, "...okay, when did this happen?" Like, yeah I'm 8,5 months pregnant, but I still do have a life... Whatever, I don't think it would bother me except for as mentioned I was trying to plan to see a friend that day who I haven't really seen since last summer. Also, I was hoping she'd be willing to help me finish cleaning up because I have a meeting with our doula at our place Sunday, and I don't really want a stranger to see my place like this. Oh well, maybe I'll find the time and effort to do it myself tomorrow.

Okay, new topic, because I didn't come here to update to bitch about my mom...

So it's finally warm here, like 25 - 30 above every day, I love it! Except that I don't really have any summer clothes that fit me. So I'm stuck wearing like two or three skirts that I have to wear under my belly and they drag on the ground, lol. Whatever, I'm not complaining...just saying. Today it rained, and I missed my bus to buy an umbrella which I never even used. But in the end it was okay, cause I walked into the mosque literally on time. Alhamdulillah, I went for juma'a for the first time in...since early March I think. I missed it so much. So many people I haven't seen in so long. Everyone was coming up to me telling me how big I am, lol.

Speaking of how big I am...I now weigh 142 pounds, I almost died when I saw that number on the scale. I was like, "holy crap!" and the nurse laughed. I might be even heavier this week.

My doctor is dumb. Like I could write three pages on how dumb she is, she's such a bitch. Anyone reading this PLEASE make du'a that she is not on call when I go into labour, because seriously, I'm ready to throw her out of the room if she comes near me at that point. I've complained about her so much that Samir said he'll kick her out of the room if she's there, he's like, "I'm not trusting her with my wife and baby". I hope I never have to deal with anyone else like her as long as I live. I need to find out where to make a formal complaint about her.

On a more positive note, I have a doula, so at least I'll have someone to stand up for me in the delivery room if that cow is there. And my doula says that my doctor has the worst bedside manner out of everyone on her team. I just really hope that next time I get a midwife.

Djibouti is 32 years old, and there will be a party tomorrow night (I mean tonight), which is why I'm still awake...I was doing my henna, and it actually looks very nice. I just hope it stains nicely. I mixed it kind of weird, cause it's been a while, and I couldn't remember how to do it properly, or which recipe I had used before which gave me such dark stains. But alhamdulillah, I made wudhu for maghrib, and still have it, so I was just waiting for fajr, and then I'll be able to keep it on until like 5 tomorrow. Or at least keep my hands away from water until then. Only thing is, I added a lot of sugar this time, so my hands are kinda sticky. OH well, I'll just wash my palms, cause I only drew on the backs of my hands. I'm going to be really sad if it doesn't stain though, I'm worried it might not, cause I used old henna, I mean it was in a bag and all, but I don't know...but it's all good, I took pictures with the paste on, so at least I can remember it. I think it will stain though, cause I did a small flower and then washed it off, and it was orangeish, also, when mixing it, I got some on my fingers, and they stayed orange for a bit.

Okay, I am officially tired, I have to go pray, and get ready for bed before I get my second wind and then can never sleep.


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le 11 avril 2009 (18:50)
current location: home
current song: none

I want to update better than this, but I really don't have time right now...maybe later tonight.

-New job
-My baby the gymnast
-Don't know what to cook
-Need to get rid of stuff
-Stressed about my medical care
-Also stressed about furniture
-And money
-So much to do...so little time in which to do it
-Love my balcony!

Okay, so now that I know what I have to update on, I'll be on later to do so, in sha'Allah.

Salaam peeps!

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le 03 mars 2009 (23:43)

current location: home
current mood: blah
current song: TV

It's been a while since I've posted. Lots going on in the past couple of weeks. I had my ultrasound last Thursday. It was pretty cool, everything's normal, so that's good.

(Warning, this paragraph may contain too much information for some). I think I lactated a little the other day (Saturday). I was sitting on the couch, and noticed something wet on my arm, then I realized it was on my shirt too, and thought I had just put too much leave in conditioner in my hair, and it was dripping, then I realized it was on both sides of my shirt. And that's when I checked, and sure enough...it was coming from inside my shirt. It was quite weird.


I think I just felt the baby moving for the first time. Not sure, cause I've been told that it feels like gas at first, and the past few days, I thought I felt movement, and then it was in fact gas. I was feeling worried, cause I keep reading you're supposed to feel movement after 20 weeks, and I'm over 22 weeks, and haven't felt anything. Then at my ultrasound, she told me that my placenta is thick, and anterior or something, anyway, it's against my belly, which provides extra cushioning is what I understood from it.

Bleen died last week, that was sad, and actually quite gross, and Samir's fish keep dying too, which is also super nasty. I must say I miss Steve, oh well, I'll see him Thursday or Friday in sha'Allah.

I worked my last day Friday, and now am job searching...I forgot how annoying it really is. I applied for one job that I really want, and I don't really even want to try for anything else, lol. I'm going to call Service Canada tomorrow, and find out about EI, cause if I take it now, I'm not sure if it will compromise me taking maternity leave in July. I also need to get my stuff ready for taxes. I received my first prenatal cheque today for 160$. We are also looking for another car, and another place to live. So crazy changes going on in my life right now! Wow, I never realized it so much until I wrote it all out like that, lol.

ANYWAY, I need to sleep, I don't want to screw up my sleeping schedule too much more.

(Wow...watching Toddlers and Tiaras...kind of creepy).

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le 23 février 2009 (11:02)
current location: Travail
current song: CBC Radio 2

This is a question for any woman who has been pregnant, any man who has dealt with a pregnant woman, or even anyone who has ever known a pregnant woman. Actually, anyone who thinks they have any advice is more than welcome.

I need some remedies for bitchiness/crankiness/bitterness etc. For about the past month I have become the biggest bitch. When I am not a shit to others, I am quite self destructive. Often I am in a bad mood, or finding something to complain about, or be bitter about. It is quite annoying, to myself, and to others around me. I think some of it has to do with a lack of sleep. But if anyone has any ideas on how to change my mood, this would be more than welcome. I keep hearing from people, "it's okay, you're pregnant" fuck off, no it's not. Of course a little bit of grumpiness is allowed due to tiredness, scaredness, and hormones, but the people around me are only going to be able to take so much. Mainly my husband. I'm pretty sure he doesn't want to be around me right now, and I can't blame him at all.

So yeah, anyone who has any ideas of how to get out of this constant state of bad moodiness, please share them! I can barely stand to be around myself at this point, I don't know how anyone else can!

Thanks in advance,

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